Tuesday, April 8, 2008

What Makes Me Most Happy...

...Getting to marry this man!

Monday, April 7, 2008

Unexpected Hurt

Why is it so hard to get over it when we feel that our character, intentions, or heart have been attacked? Today I was hurt deeply and it was completely unexpected. A sucker punch waiting for me as I turned my face to look. I'm still a little in shock as it came from someone I haven't talked to in years and it was concerning someone I haven't talked to in many months. I'm amazed that I can so negatively affect someone else's life while living half way across the country from them and having no communication with them. I've been accused of not caring, being concerned only with myself, pursuing an inappropriate relationship (of which I've done no pursuing), attacking someone and not allowing them to move forward in their lives...isn't it crazy that I could manage all of that with absolutely no contact or communication with someone!? I must be a pretty powerful and terrible person if I'm capable of all that. I feel so betrayed...I don't even know what else to say...

Friday, April 4, 2008

“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.” --Mahatma Gandhi

Sad, yet true. I have lately been struggling so much with Christians and the fact that many times it is the "Christians" who are the least likeable people on earth! Why do we feel that we are called to be abrasive and unloveable? If I could tally up the totals I know that I have seen more theological debating amongst the Christian community than I have love for one another, and this, frankly, disgusts me! I've been on the verge of tears today just thinking about how I am many times ashamed to call myself a Christian, not because of my belief in Christ and all that entails, but because of what other Christians have turned it into. I am heartbroken at the way we, as Christian brothers and sisters, treat each other! Why would the world ever want a relationship with Christ when they see the way we act towards one another? Why would a world of broken and dysfunctional families want to join another family that is just as broken? People don't want to join the fight...they want to join in bringing peace and love to the world!

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,[fn1] but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13