You know when you have those days where everything, large or small, goes wrong? Well…that was my whole week last week and it is now spilling over into this one. It seems as though Murphy’s Law has taken over my life and is not ready to relinquish a moment of it quite yet. I have found it true that at this time anything that can go wrong will.
I have been pulled over twice in the past three days because of an overdue inspection, and even after showing the second officer (who was a very bitter female I might add) the ticket and telling her that I was taking my car in for inspection on Friday she still decided to ticket me, and all with an attitude and rolling eyes…I just love being treated like the scum of the earth.
After having my internship lined up for next semester I found out at the very last minute that I wasn’t even enrolled in school and that I would have to re-apply, I was behind in my Christian service hours, so I would have to get approval from their office to do an internship, and then I could begin getting the million signatures needed to complete my internship papers. Not to mention that it is the holidays and some of the people I need to sign these papers are going to be out of town. So, I am praying that they will let me still do the internship next semester even though my paperwork will be insanely late, but I must say, with all of my recent ill-fated encounters, I’m not holding my breath (the way things are going even holding my breath would probably result in immediately suffocation).
I would love to believe that all of this junk that I am experiencing is ultimately leading me to a huge blessing that God has waiting for me, but to be honest I think Christians over use that mindset, thinking that whenever we go through bad times it’s just because Satan is attacking because God is about to do something wonderful. And, maybe that is the truth…I’ve seen it happen a lot, but I also know that you cannot put God in a box. He doesn’t work in a formula, and when he doesn’t “come through” with some amazing blessing after a time of hardship we become disappointed in Him and feel as if He has failed us. When really, we have wrong beliefs and rather than getting to know who God really is, we expect Him to meet our expectations of Him.
Anyways, all this to say…life kind of sucks right now…tis the season, I guess.
1 comments:
Sorry you've had such a hard time, Em. Your thinking seems to be right on target though re: expectations. Echoes what a friend told me as recently as yesterday.
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